11-1-10

Alrighty so I am having the best time of my life living it up senior year!!! I mean can you believe that I am actually on the verge of graduating?!?!?!! I really can’t wait for prom though! I just want to say that now that all of the “adult supervision” is gone, I can actually live my live and do what I want to do without someone always being there judging me and telling me what I can or can’t do. Alrighty so now for the real reason why im writing tonight…

                      

                 Mr. John Tucker!!! So he likes me and I like him but the only real problem is that the fact that we don’t know what is going to happen if we actually get involved with each other. I mean with him it seems like its just a physical thing and that he just wants to smash… but im not like that and although im a bit “sexually deprived” I think that doing it with him of all people would be setting myself up for failure. I just think that if he keeps pushing me I just might give in cause his game aint no joke and maybe, just maybe, with the right words, I will have come down with the Tucker disease. Im already showing some of the symptoms too!!! But at school everybody in our circle knows that’s MY booskie and that we flirt and everything but he is single and he can do whoever or whatever he wants to cause we’re not together but he is mine, to a certain extent. We all found that out on homecoming night… everybody was jealous cause he wanted to be around me and not him  but honestly its like, if you really want to talk to him then go and do it cause he not gonna turn you down right on the spot. Everybody always be getting so shy and stuff around him but he not gonna sit there and dis you or talk shit in your face, he is actually a nice person!!! I mean its not that serious, if you want to talk to the boy, then go up to him and talk to him… its not like its gonna be the end of the world or anything!! He is just another human being that lives and breathes just like you do and he feels the same things you feel, he just has different ways of showing his emotions.